When?

I remember the past.
It was all very clear.
Did not take very long.
It just past by my side.

How am I going to live without you?
How can I survive this..
Desperate take?

When will I find out..
the difference in you?
When will I understand..
why you treated me so badly?
When will I know?

When will I know?

How can I ever believe you..
again..

When will I find out..
the difference in you?
When will I understand..
why you treated me so badly?
When will I know..
How to believe..
In myself..
Forget the past..
And move on...

This is just a random song I made while writing. I know it sucks and all. But just live with it BITCHES... Hahaha... I'm kidding. But please dont scolde me..
=p

Mood Swings...

everyone has mood swings...

he has some too...

well a lot actually...

i miss him and i love him too much to even consider...

he makes me happy sometimes but sad in some...

i want him...

can someone translate that to him...

i really love him...

Boo...

Yes!!

It's the end of exams...

Very boring though...

I've been watching horror movies for the past few days...

So... care to help me overcome???

Day Out...

Ughh... Feeling very tired. Went out nearly the whole day. Feet hurt. We went to watch a movie. Orphan. Creepy.

Anyway it was planed like this.
Who's going?
Me, Audrey, Kimberly and Joel
What time?
11.30 a.m.
What show?
Orphan

Which turned out like this.
Who's going?
Me, Audrey, Joel and his friend
What time?
All came at different time
What show?
Thank goodness it was orphan

Anyway, my sister and I arrived at Coffee Bean at 11.33 a.m.. She wouldn't wait in there cause she thought you had to buy something to sit in there. So, I'm not the one that argues. I just follow her. Then 11.40 a.m., Audrey came. We stood in front of speedy and watched Barbie and The Three Musketeers. So childish, I know. A little later, Joel came with his friend. Last time, I never really got close to Joel to know that he was 10 cm taller than me. I was the shortest of the lot.

We had KFC for lunch. Audrey shared with me. She din't even eat much. Bad Audrey. I din't finish it though. I don't think next time KFC is a good idea. Ugh.. feel sick talking about it (Sorry). Then Basil came and my sister left. I texted her as soon as she left. "Help me". I know, stupid. But I was my ussual self. Nervous. The movie was 1.15p.m.. We bought the tickets at around 1.12 p.m. or something. It was free sitting. So we went up. Found our seets, sat down. After about 3 miniuts, the show started. Well, not techniclly the show. There were some other trailers. 2012, District 9. I think that's it. Before the real show started, Joel asked me:" How are you feeling now?" "Scared" was my reply.

The beggining of the movie was already scary. To me I mean. And next time, when a movie says 18+, it means 18+. It was a little rude honestly. And scary. Let's not forget that. During the movie, a feeling inside me wanted to hold Joel's hand. It was scary. Half way through the movie, Audrey and I needed to go to the toilet. When we came back, it was completely dark. So we stood there for a few seconds to get use to the dark.Then my Audrey used her phone to shine oue path. The show was scary. I really wanted to scream. I calmed down though. I closed my eyes a lot of times.

After the movie, Audrey got a massage from my sister saying she was at star bowl. Wow... I went in and saw them playing bowling. My sister was suppose to go archery with Basil or face the bowl ( I mean bowling ah...). She actually put the ball on teh ground and pushed it. She spared...

Then I turned around and saw Joel and his friends paying for pool. So Audrey badly wanted to go Sushi King. Then I told Joel that we were going off and we'd come back later. We ate a total of RM15 only. We went back to the bowling alley where the pool was. Turns out that was thier forth game. Joel's friend won him twice and I'm guesseing Joel doeosn't want to loose. So, I think he did really cool moves, if you could call them. Playing with the stick behind his back. Once even sitting on the table. ( Which I thaught was really hot...) shh... He better not read this. In the end, they got a fair game. 2:2. Then we took another walk and on. Then I reminded him about the present I owe him for his birthday and vice versa. So, we went around aimlessly. I seriously din't know what to get him. Then he suggested a leather wallet. I was blured out. Then he told me a fake one. Then we went to Super Save. On the way there, I really wanted to hold his hand. Darn my evil side!!!

Then , I found Joel and his friend at The Arcade. Then we left and all that. By the time it was 5.45 or something. My sister said it was time to go so I just obey her. Joel suggested we wait at Coffee Bean. And my sister was thinking why we were not talking and all that. So she waited outside. I t felt so much more free.

Well, that's probebly as much as I can remember during the day. I had a great time. Especially cause...shh...

That's all folks.....................

Why is it so complicated?

I can't believe it. My life is so hard to understand. Why is it that I am able to like several people at the same time? That is one of the bad things I hate about myself.

During the August Holiday, Elijah told me he liked me since last year. Which I kindda found out already. Since then, the devil side of me came out. I started to like him. He'd call me Nessie, Luv, V etc. etc. etc.. I really liked him. But since the facebook quiz, i got 'lust' as one of the seven deadly sins. So i think it's just lust. Or as Joel would say, infatuation.

I hate liking someone. It's hard to understand why there's something called mating. I know that I don't love him. But the devilish side just wants to take over. What am I gonna do?

During the mooncake season, I'm buying mooncakes for Aaron. Not Elijah. That's the right choice. I think. Why is so hard to understand this love? I think I might write a song. If you can help me, please do.....

You bitch!!!!

Guess what? We had freakin' choir pract today. That sucks... I went to school early, found out I was half an hour early. That sucks again... So I went to choir as usual. But today I was more angry that anything. I went sat down. Then suddenly that bitch came in. It blew me to the ceiling. Everything sort of happened like this....

Time: 12.30
Venue: School Library
We were all happily going to choir. Except for me. So we go in, sit down. Wait.

"Ok, today we learn a new song...." blablabla says MIss Jenny.
Then all of a sudden, Miss Faith the Bitch came in.
i looked at my sister. She was tearing up.

Before I knew it she stromed out of the room. I followed her.
Everyone was kindda on her side. So she got angry. And you readers will know the rest...

I've already told you...
byebye...

What a to do...

He's killing me.
Eating me alive.
Biting me bit by bit.
I can't forget him.
I've tried, and now I'm tired.
He flowed back to me.
Closing the door in my mind.
It's stuck.
I can't get it out.

Why does he creep back?
Why does he stay here?
I'm trying to forget him.

Why is he so bad?
What have done wrong?
I'm trying to forget him.

It's no Good...

I'm sure some of you were asking me to talk to Aaron... And congrats, I talked to him...
I had a great time talking with him...
It all happened like this...

Date: Thursday Venue: Class 2D4 Time:4.20p.m.
Teacher: Alright, I'm going to give you all a choice...
Students:...(wait)
Teacher: You all can split into three big groups or eight
small groups.
Sheena: Small...
Teacher: In that case. I'll split you. Let's start with
Kelvin.
Kelvin: 1
Aaron: 2
Christian: 3
Wilson : 4
Karen:5
Eileen: 6
Ch'ng:1
Brandon: 2
Sophia:3
Lee:4
Felicia: 5
Fredric: 6
Person A: 1
Person B: 2
Marinah: 3
Person C: 4
Person D:5
Person E:6
Person F:1
Person G:2
Benny:3
Corina:4
Alfred:5
Empty space beside him...
Perpertua:6
Person H:1
Medline:2
Syafaizzul: 3
Person J:4
Sheena: 5
Suhana:6
Erlin:1
Suhana: 2
Jason: 3
Marina: 4
Person I: 5
Person J:6
Person K:1
Hazleen: 2
Person L:3
Person M:4
Person N: 5
William: 6
Shelby: 1
Vanessa( Me):2
Liyana: 3
Teofilus:4
Tang: 5
Yen: 6
Zara: 1
Then...
Teacher:Ok, now get into your groups.
Everyone moves.. Then I found out I was in the same group as Aaron..
So we were very shy. Then the English teacher told me to look for a new teacher to write some students ic.
So I went. After the form was filled, another teacher from the staff room asked me to go to class and call Zara to see her.
So I went up told the teacher I had to get Zara down. Then I found out she didn't come to school...
So I went down again. I told the teacher she didn't come.Then the teacher told me to collect money for the PSV thing. So I went up again, told my English teacher my errand. And of course he let me.
So I went one group at a time.Each person. I reached him the last.
Vanessa: Ni you yi kuai ma? (Do you have RM1?)
Aaron: Search pocket. Found RM 1. Gives me.
Vanessa: Ok.
Aaron: Zhe ge shi gei shen me de?( What is this for?)
Vanessa: PSV
END OF CONVERSATION 1

Finally, I sat down. But before two seconds, my group members asked me about the writing they did. They managed to write three sentences through out my absents. That sucks..
Here's what they wrote. Well, what Aaron wrote anyway.

Introduction: Teeth are a very importence organ. We need to take care of our teeth in our daily routine.

Body 1: Sweets are bad.

Aren't they angels. They wrote three sentences. So took the paper, read it and dumped it. I rewrote. I wrote a Eight sentence opening. And five body part. But that was just points.

Then suddenly one Malay girl said: C* B**( White Chicken)
So I asked her do you know what that means.. Of course he answer was no. Then she demanded to know the answer.So I told her to ask Aaron. Since we're the only Chinese there. So she might have said something like: Apa maksud C*B**?(What is White CHicken?)
He suddenly started laughing crazily. Like an idiot if I might add. He kept laughing and laughing for about five miniuts. And I said: Xiao bao le mei you?( Finished laughing?)
Aaron: Mei you.( NOt yet.)
Vanessa:Shen jing bing liao ha? (Crazy already huh?)
Aaron: Em..
Vanessa: Shen jing bing...
End of conversation 2

Next day...

Vanessa: Kan yi xia zhe ge zhuo wen. Ran hou gei qi ta zhu yuan...
Aaron: Ooo...

Then Aaron gave the paper to Wilson.Who claims he gave it to Karen Lidai. But karen claims she never even seen it..
And that's how bad things start.

Vanessa: Ni ji ran ba wo xie de san bai duo ge zhi de zhuo wen rong bu jian! ( You actually lost my three hudred word easay!)
Aaron: Wo mei you rong bu jian. Wo gei Wilson...( I didn't lose it. I gave it to Wilson.
That was the last conversation we had that day..

I hope it will be the last time...
I don't ever want to talk to him again...As it is he sucks...
I don't care if I'm the first and last person he will like...
I'm dumping him...
I've never been out with him... And I never will...
Scincerly,
Vanessa...

Choir Is OVER!!!!

Finally the hard, endless days of choir has passed... I'm just kidding... We just practiced for two weeks or so... It's not that scary, but it is tiring..

We rehearsed a few times. Maybe three times or so... Every time after choir, I go back to class and have everybody staring at me like I'm an alien. It's not so bad...

This morning, we had our choir performance. We sang "Alleluia" for the service ( I think..). Then Miss Jenny rushed us back to the room(4e7) to practice our other songs...

Then at 8:30, we had to rush back to the hall for the opening ceremony. A lot of V.I.P. went. It was like a prison.. You couldn't do this and that. The neckties must be like this like that... So annoying....

After drowning speech to drowning speeches, our school band played a song for us... I kindda forgot the name... To any band members who might, will, have read this...sorry............

It was a nice song...

Then there was this dancing group from our school... The danced a dance call erm... "Ismara dan". I think.....
By then we "choir people" had to start going backstage and get ready...Ugh... I was not nervous. But nervous about my sister... She had to sing a solo...

Anyway, we went out, faced the people, looked at the conductor and start.. After our first song "Burong Kakak Tua" My sister started singing her solo... But she was singing so low.....

Anyway, I gave her a 'B' for the solo... Then we had to sing another song called "Voice of Tommorow".... I think it was quite good...the little kids were so cute...

Then isceremony was anounced closed. But we " choir people" still had to sgty on stage and sing "Ibu pertiwiku" and the "St. Columba" School song....

Over all I think we did a good job...

We even had a 'pameran' and food fair and fun fair stuff...

So ma and my friends just walked around and all that...

Well I guess that's all for my post..

BYEBYE,
Vikki

Twilight Fanatic!!!!!

I love twilight....
That's all I can say...
I made lots of scrapbooks of twilight...
And I'm gonna share them with you...

TWILIGHT SCRAPBOOK 1

TWILIGHT SCRAPBOOK2


TWILIGHT SCRAPBOOK 3

TWILIGHT SCRAPBOOK 4
TWILIGHT SCRAPBOOK 5

TWILIGHT SCRAPBOOK 6


TWILIGHT SCRAPBOOK7

TWILIGHT SCRAPBOOK8

TWILIGHT SCRAPBOOK9

TWILIGHT SCRAPBOOK10

twilight scrapbook 11

twilight scrapbook 12

TWILIGHT SCRAPBOOK 13

Please vote which one you like best...
I would make more, but someone is burning rubbish outside.
And I'm starting to get a headache....
Vote!!!!